Hebrew

Ever since I have discovered how wonderful the word of God- reading the Bible is, I have found myself "obcess" of not reading just one verse then to one chapter, its now almost reading the whole book.

I am going backwards...with the exception of the book of Revelation in the New Testatment.  Why, I am not sure.  Does it really matter?  Each book that contains not only so many promises, but the wisdom and guidance that God gives us each to in our every day growth.  Understanding so much more  now about Jesus sacrifice, but more so the Love of God.  Its an experience that I regret I had not had years before.

But one thing I have learned in my new Christianity of life is that often God sets a plan before us that we may not always understand.  In Hebrew 11- this is talked about...how by Faith we must TRUST HIM to what His plan is for us.  Maybe at the moment just when we think we need something, He purposely sets a new plan to have us wait. And although we can't always see it, as long as we have faith in Him, it happens.

When we look back at our lives, we can see how the puzzle is being made.  Things that didn't make sense at the time, makes perfectly sense now.   Faith.

I am up to chapter 13 now in the book of Hebrews....I am only reading a few chapters at a time now in the larger books, so that  have a better concept of what God is telling me ...taking baby steps. But even in the few chapters I am reading, the food I take in is giving the strength I need for the day.

I wish so much I would had this eye opener when Tim was here, there would had been so much more to tell him and share with him.  I hope and pray that God has forgiven me for neglecting Timothy His word but pray that during Tim's last breathes that He had given his life and heart to God.

Every time I think of that day, watching them give him CPR, wishing I could hold his hand at the moment letting him know I was there, I will not leave him.  The nurses and doctors tried to ask me to leave  the room but I refused to.  I needed to be there with him, whether he knew it not, I don't know.  Tim was never the same after that. He had a stroke and I am not sure where his mind really was, but I hope the one eye that was open he was talking to me letting me know that it was best for him to let go.  I knew he had to after that, his life would not be the same. But I prayed with him and told him to make sue his heart was with God and to go in peace with Him.

Ohhh I miss him so much.  Good bye Timothy...see you in heaven. I love you.