I just gone in to see my gastro physician due to the enormous amount of pain on my left side. It felt like my intestines were being squeezed. I had also discovered my right leg swollen in the shower. She had sent me to make sure I had no clots in my legs.
While laying there, Timothy kept coming to my thoughts. I so wish he was here so I can tell him so much. I missed him so much. I so want to tell him about the movie I saw yesterday ( ) and the new ones coming out that I just knew he would love. I just missing telling him a lot of stuff.
I not only missing him as my son, but as my friend.
I wept as I slowly drove myself home.
I wanted to get under the covers and weep. Where is Tim.why is he not here with me right now. I felt like i have failed him as mother and a friend. I prayed that he did give his heart to God before his last breath.
As I cried, I heard a voice say..." I am right here Mom, in your thoughts and in your heart. I hear you. I am right next to you"
I wept. He has been here all along and through my tears, I missed him.
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