Journal-Trusting God

It's amazing that a whole week has gone by since I posted last.  Ohhh Lordy. What happened last week. Ohhh the business cards and t-shirts came in for Tim's RUB YOUR HEAD Campaign.  Both turned out pretty good.  

I did make the step to go buy the external hard drive and backed up my documents, photos, videos and miscellaneous.  it emptied my bank account. lol the joy of "homelessness."  I needed to save my photos and documents in case this computer crashed. God forbid it does, but better be on the safe side.

This week I appealed my financial aid, and see what the chance  of getting back into math class.  All I can do is pray. Trust Him. 

I feel no one is really taking me serious on this project -Judy House.  It breaks my heart.  Quite disappointing. All I can do is pray and trust in God.  Judy's house really needs help. I know I need to keep trusting Him. 

Then I learned something last week. that my cancer may be back.  I'm like, "please..God...no!" 

I don't know why or what God is testing me with, but I need to stop caring so much for other people and helping them and its time I get serious and start working on me...after all no one else is helping me out.  I seem to have to do so much for me.  Even with family -its been hell. The worse part, not only am I dealing with cancer (possible), I am still grieving over Timothy.  Loosing a child is no easy thing like many think.  

I just got word that our place may be found. A house.  But I need to see it.  see what the possibility may be. Again I need  to trust God. 

Again, I am praying for a job also. My volunteer experiences has been a blessing to me.  its something I have needed in my life. The joy of helping Judy, her house and also now I might have a new project- a school in Italy has no school books, library or computers.  That will be the challenge to raise funds for.  It will take a lot, but I am waiting for information from the source of what the needs are and how many computers, etc...etc...So all I can do is pray. Pray and trust in God for another one of His wonderful miracles for these children.

The other news is that 3 more young men died from Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy this week.  And sadly, young Danny only 12  years old, is in ICU struggling with heart failure. Ohhh I pray that God please give us a cure soon or please come Lord Jesus, please come soon so that no one else suffers any more.  R.I.P. boys- I'm sure the DMD club in heaven is greeting you.  

I'm the homeless one. I'm the grieving one.  I'm the sick one. And yet I'm still taking care of everyone and only God is taking care of me. 

Trust.