Journal: Never Stop Improving

   Through all crying, it dawned on me as I was raking the leaves that the shockness of Tim's death had now been wearing off and now I was really feeling the full blown grief that I most likely didn't show last year. Under my covers, in my privacy most of the time yes I grieved, I cried but in public I was trying not to.


    As I was raking the leaves on Judy's front lawn, I was also shoveling leaves in the Lowes leaf bags. I noticed their logo on their bag. I almost laughed when I read it. Really?! God you really have a wonderful sense of humor of talking to me. I knew immediately it was about me, not the yard.  Only moments before I was raking more leaves that had fallen after spending most of the afternoon before, as I felt the wind blow, and watched more leaves fall, I again praised God for His funny sense of humor.  You see, God will find strange ways to talk to us.

    "Never stop improving"  

   You see even through all my sorrow and grief,  God still wants me to find some kind of time to make improvements in my life even through my grief, but yet still allow Him to mold me to become like Him. Through all my trials and tribulations, my ups and downs, through all my tears - God still loves me enough to remind me to make those positive improvements in my life.  The only way people are going to see God...is through me, through you.  The only way people are going to see God's love...is through me, through you.

   That means I need to make a tremendous amount of improvements in my life.  My character. The way and how I speak. The way and how I act.  But I must make that choice to do make those improvements to show the world of God's love. Be a light onto my family, my friends, my community, & the world I live on.

  I know God put me on this earth for a reason.  I know there must more to it then just being there for Timothy.  I know He chose me to be Timothy's mother. But I know through the training and preparation for Timothy, to be there for Timothy in his 25 years olf life, He is also preparing me for something bigger. I don't what it is nor do I know when it is, all I know He is going to use me for His glory.

Are you ready to make time for improvements.  Never stop improving.
 

Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God. -Corrie ten Book