A New Journey: Journal

May 17, 2014

Funny how God works. Its a mystery how much He knows about us..... each of us. This morning before going to church I posted in my blog of how much I needed that peace inside me...and I go to church and what does the pastor preach on..Peace. And how to be a peace keeper. What a blessing.

Had to the chance to talk to some members and stayed over for the potluck (to much pasta! lol) talked with the pastor, or tried to but others kept butting in. They had a baby dedication too.

When I got back to Dina's I changed clothes and then got my hands dirty. I planted over 36 plants. Her back yard is almost a little paradise. Beautiful! In the morning when she is at church I'm going to mow the lawn and finish planting. Then I'm going to help her put up a new mail box post. I'll take pictures for you to see. Ohhh wait!! I'm suppose to go the beach tomorrow! well there goes the idea of helping the mail box

I'm hurting all over and been feeling dizzy. I think this happens if I lean my head forward to much.

Dina is making cookies for her hospitality luncheon...smells awfully good.

May 17, 2014, Saturday

I woke up this morning with a great sense of grief for Timothy. The first thing I said was that "I pray that you are safe in the arms of God." I know its still fresh with this loss. But you tremendouly not only hurt but how much you miss this wonderful, smart, loving & caring person who made you laugh.

Oh I how much I hate this disease. It robbed me of my beloved son as it also robbed so many boys before Timothy.

Since being here in Jacksonville I have put in over 8 job applications with my Resume. Still house shopping too. I have had some interest in purchasing the truck. I really don't want to volunteer turn it in to the bank. I really don't, but at the same time I can't afford it. The only thing i can think of since right now since I don't pay rent, to make those car payments until I can sell it.

I went to check my bank account and freaked out...its not even half of the month and I'm already in the hole. I pray God lovingly watches over me and in His timing provide my needs...what it may be.

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Today,I 'm going to attempt to go to church...Jacksonvile first SDA church over on Lenox. I pray I can not only feel God's presence, but the peace I need, the mercy, love and forgiveness I know I so much deserve. I am so thankful for what He has done for me and how He willl pour over His favor and blessing. I may not see it now, but I know God is about to flood my life with goodness.

Its a love that the world can not undersand...His love He gives unto us.. Its a peace I know we have with God. here is my fav playlist at youtube....what an inspirational and hope.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVC7lRpnWHY

Tomorrow I'm gonna make an attempt to take the dogs in for their vaccinations and from there go to the beach. I just need that time with God and me and what better place than the beach. Pictures to come...soon. I promise.

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